Monthly Archives: June 2009

Patience the hard way #2

Samantha and I received the news we were waiting on yesterday and it wasn’t what we were hoping for. God has closed that particular door for us and to say we’re disappointed doesn’t really do it justice. It’s back to square one for us in seeking God and His direction for us as a family and to be honest it’s not a fun place to be in right now.

If you’re a regular reader you’ll know my passion is to live an authentic ‘real’ life before God and people. That’s the reason I started this blog, to help me share my passion with the world and to learn all I can from others about being authentic. I know that God is calling me to serve Him in a vocational way, I’m just not sure where that is or in what capacity yet.

Based on my assessment of my gifts and skills I would love it to be in a leadership/Pastoral role, preferably in worship/music and/or with teenagers and young adults. I have a heart to lead well, to lead people in God’s will for us and to serve them by teaching and building them up to serve God with their whole lives. So far things have been pretty quiet on the way forward…so I  keep pushing on doors and waiting for God to lead me.

Recently all the doors have been closed on me, and while I know “God has a plan” and “it’s not His will” or “it’s not His timing” etc… it’s not very comforting at this moment in time. I’m disappointed and a bit frustrated and a little upset. I prayed for patience and, silly me, I think I expected God to teach it to me on my schedule, my timeline. According to me, I’ve waited long enough, according to God, I’m still behaving like a spoilt child wanting it all ‘now’ and He’s disciplining me for my own good.

Patience is hard, I’m really struggling with it right now and would love your help.  What have you found helpful, what has God taught you about patience?



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Learning Patience the Hard Way

God is teaching me to be patient and I really don’t like it 😉

It’s all my fault too, I prayed and asked Him to teach me patience and guess what, He took me seriously!

I’m waiting to hear some news that will mean a significant change for Samantha and I and the waiting is killing me! In today’s fast food, convenient store, mobile Internet and Twitter world where I want everything instantly I’ve forgotten that God is beyond space and time. A day is like a thousand years and a thousand years like a day for God (2 Peter 3:8) and He isn’t bound by my time frames or demands.

His will is paramount and as His child I need to learn to conform to it. God is Faithful and Just and He knows what’s best for us but He is also a gentleman and wont force His will upon us. God waits for us to respond to Him, He’s the perfect example of patience…

I know all of this and yet waiting still sucks! It’s really hard to submit to the will of God in our lives, we are so used to doing things ourselves and looking out for our needs and desires, waiting for God seems so against the flow.

And that’s the point isn’t it? God IS against the flow of this world, that is what makes Him so good, just, faithful and all the other things this world isn’t. God’s ways are the BEST ways and I’m finding that patience is the way He’s teaching me that truth. By taking the control factor out of my hands, He is teaching me to wait and trust, to rely on His goodness, mercy, grace and unchanging faithfulness because He knows what’s coming is going to be the best thing for me. I need to trust that God knows best and do all I can to resist the urge to take matters into my own hands and mess things up

Waiting is hard, patience isn’t easy but God uses it to shape us into the people He wants us to be.

Can you help me out? I’d love to hear what you have learnt about patience.


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