OUCH! These words hit me like a ton of bricks when I read them… in my quest for God and for a church home I’ve been far too self-centred.
I know all about church existing for God’s benefit and not our own, that serving God is a self-less pursuit and my desires usually need to take a back seat.. but am I too self-centred?
I know that deep down in my nature I’m quick to judge and more of a pessimist than an optimist, I find it easier to see the things I don’t like over those I do. It’s not pretty, I don’t like it and it’s something that I’m working on, but none the less it’s there and being aware of it is a plus right?
Is this the reason I haven’t wanted to attend church or look for a new one? Am I too critical, too quick to judge and not nearly quick enough to wait for God to speak to me about where He wants us to be?
I need to focus on Jesus, I need to fix my eyes again on who He is and who He is calling me to be. Only the transforming power of Jesus can change my inner most thoughts and desires and make me more like Him. I am a work in progress and I thank God that today He pointed out this flaw in me. It’s now my job to respond…
God I repent of my self-centred ways, make me more like Jesus, more loving, caring, quick to listen and slow to judge. Lord please lead me in your ways, I surrender my life, my plans and my future to You, there is no better to lead my life. I am Yours I submit to You.