Today I messed up.
I missed an opportunity to follow God’s leading and make a difference.
I was running some errands in town and walked past a homeless man with a sign that said “I’m homeless and I’m hungry”. I looked at him and I walked by, just kept going on my way.
All the while the words of Jesus was pounding in my heart “whatever you do for the least of these you do for me”.
I started to rationalise the situation in my head, “what should I do, If I give money he’ll probably use it for alcohol, maybe I should take him some food…” So stereotypical isn’t it, see a homeless guy and assume he’s on the booze or drugs.
I ran my errands and decided that I needed to walk back the same way, go and see him.
I still didn’t know what I was going to do as I rounded the corner where he was…
I’d taken $5 out of my wallet and had it in my pocket, that would be the easy solution, throw money at him and be done with it… I should go buy him some food, even take him with me, chat with him, show him he’s worth more than just a few bucks, that he’s valued for who he is…
As I rounded the corner – he was gone.
I couldn’t have been more than 10 minutes – but he was gone.
I looked for him but couldn’t find him. My heart sank, heavy with remorse at a missed opportunity to obey my Heavenly Father and show love to my fellow man.
I’m ashamed that I had to think about it, debate the decision, when I know that I am His hands and feet.
Today I blew it.
Why do we find it so hard to follow God’s whispers, why do we need to think we know best…
Forgive me Lord for not following your lead. Teach me, train me and grow me to respond without question, to be obedient Your call.